26 Oct

I’m at home minding my own business and mom calls me and is like “your aunt’s car broke down and I need to pick your sister up so go ahead and start the dinner”. I start cooking and is done around the time she comes home. All she did when she walk in the door was BITCH! No thank you for cooking for tonight or cleaning the whole house or making it smell wonderful.

I know a daughter should do some of these thing anyway but my mother never says thank you or sorry.  It’s nice to hear a thank you at least once in my lifetime from MY OWN FREAKING MOTHER!


dear God why

20 Oct

currently shaking… omg    I think I just heard a woman get raped, well she was screaming and yelling for help

yes yes i called the police but I’m still shaking

I usually don’t wake up from my sleep so I hope this lay will be ok


10 Oct

Lately a lot of things have been putting me down in the dumps *le sigh*.

My mom just loves to critizes everything about me. I know I don’t have perfect skin or hair but can once in my lifetime you tell me that I am beautiful when I’m not dress up for an event.

In ballet there are these two girls who oviusly aren’t beginners and when choreographing the dance for the upcoming performance my teacher focuses on them more and give them all the good parts. When I do something wrong she will tell me I’m soing it wrong but soesnt help correct me. This is very fustrating.

I am supposse to be higher than this type of math but I’ve been making 70’s and 80’s. I know people will say “oh those are good grades”, but this is 9th and 10th grade math and I’m in college.  I should be in college algebra. I just feel so stupid.

Although these may seem like small problems but they are a huge part of my life.

fall is in the air

10 Oct

The past week it has been really cold. This is unusual for me because our last fall and winter season was warm; the lowest it ever got was 75 degrees. I love fall and winter, it reminds me of the fun and joyous things I did in high school. It all starts with cheerleading for the football games. They won all of their games and made it to the play offs!!! Our football players were reaaally cute and they would flirt with us, some of us even dated them. We would be freezing our legs off before, during, and after the game we had a lot of fun with the football players. Especially me during the time we went to competition. We had to stay at a hotel near the arena so that whole night I was talking with one of the players that I liked and the whole cheer team kept harassing me about it but all in good fun.


The next year in 11th grade I joined my high school cheer team. The skirts were shorter (but I loved it) which meant not only would I be freezing my legs off but my ass too. This team always lost a game except for when we went against our rival. I think the player got mad at us every time we would have more fun than them at the games… which were ALL the time. One particular game went, “Hey 69, Your house or mine” or “Number 55, you so fine” and there coach got mad and told us to stop so they could focus on the game, *rolls eyes* we were never going to win a game against one of the best teams.


So far my fall and winter seasons have been fun so I’m going to try keeping it that way!

Night Out

6 Oct

Sooo last night me and my best friend took this straight black guy (like all hood and shit guy) to metro a gay club in my area. When we got out the car he thought that it was a costume party but when he started seeing dykes and the drag show started he was like wtf. It was soooo funny. He was mad and very uncomfortable but I really enjoyed the show!  It was halloween themed and those queens were werking it! WERK!    This older lady bought we an my friend a drink  😉

a message to myself

1 Oct

If you feel that your dance teacher is correcting you a lot, don’t take it personally. You should actually feel good! It means that your teacher took time to watch you specifically and that she wants you to be an even better dancer. You don’t want to continue to keep doing the wrong thing, do you? You can start to feel bad when your teacher stops correcting you. No one is perfect, and even professional dancers have to be corrected. Most teachers try to correct in ways that don’t make you feel embarrassed. They were once in your position.

I thought you were my friend…

28 Sep

So my first year at a new high school (11th grade) I became friends with a group of girls. Everything was good until the next school year. One friend moved away, one became a hoe, one became anorexic, and the last no one had classes with except me.

So the anorexic one (she won’t admit to it but everyone knows no one is naturally that skinny and she doesn’t eat nothing but a bag of chips a day) we stayed friends for most of the school year. I really didn’t connect with her at the end because she was even more anorexic then before and started hanging out with the fake people in school (white’s and oreo’s that try to brag about how much money they have and pretend to like everyone). So naturally I spent less and less time with her.

The one that moved away went into the military and we still are best friends we just talk much less.

The hoe, she wasn’t always a hoe but the next school year (12th grade) she broke up with her bf and started dressing slutty and smoking weed and having sex with every boy she met over the internet. I, her current bf, and her best friend were in the same class together. We will call her best friend Kayla. We sat together and became friends. After grad bash I took them out of town and we had fun minus the hoe (she was all wrapped up into her bf) so me and the “Kayla” had fun stayed out and partied. Me and the “Kayla” started with drawing away from the hoe because she was sooooo wrapped up with her bf. I tried multiple time s to hang out with her but she never followed through. So the next time I went out of town I took “Kayla” only and we had a lot of fun. Ever since “Kayla” got her new bf she hasn’t talked to me. So today I went on Facebook and there are pic of the hoe and “Kayla” hanging out together. I didn’t mind but it was like hey y’all could have called me and asked if I wanted to hang out too, I mean because we all became really close friends… like really close. It just kind of aggravated me. Maybe I’m wrong for feeling like that? Maybe I’m overreacting?

*the only reason I’m calling the girl “the hoe” is to differentiate the people without revealing their names*